Friday, January 28, 2011
My little Jr and I actually got out and about this morning before 10am. We did a fun trip with a new moms group. I got to meet some really nice other moms, explore some art and take a brisk stroll outdoors. The moms group is nice and I'm hoping to meet someone there that I can become 'real' friends with. I kind of hit it off with one mummy, but we'll see. I feel like I'm back in school trying to make friends again. At least this time if I don't make any friends I've still got Jr.- and he ain't going nowhere. I snapped this photo of the porker while on our walk. It looks like he's waving! What a sweet little poopy head.
Posted by Edamummy at 5:35 PM
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Recently I've been struggling with some serious blues. I of course had the baby blues after delivering Jr. but this was something different. I didn't want to leave the house and just wanted to stay in bed all day, not even wanting to be bothered with Jr. I didn't want to get up and feed him, didn't want to change him and certainly didn't have the energy to play with him. I would randomly cry sometimes. It was horrible and I felt guilty at times.
Being a mom is a big adjustment and clearly I wasn't ready. I started feeling bad mentally, but it came on in a way that I didn't even notice it happening. I stopped enjoying things, and didn't want to do any of the things I used to love. I found myself resenting other moms who seemed, in my eyes, to be better at it. I would read about other moms who seemed to be diving right into baby products, baby clothes, baby everything and loving it. I hated them, and I was jealous. I saw moms out shopping and all dressed up and cute and seemingly did it so effortlessly. Why were they able to do it and I couldn't? The house was going to shit and the thought of absolutely anything was overwhelming. Thinking about brushing my teeth was a monumental task. I felt isolated because I don't have any other mom friends to spend time with and vent with. I felt alone, but didn't want to talk to anyone, even my friends. And even when I did talk to people I didn't feel like they really understood.
I think the biggest problem was that I didn't want to even see my baby. He irritated me.
I don't think I'm the only one who has felt like this. At least I hope not, cause that would be weird! I thought about taking anti-depressants, but that's not what I truly needed. What I needed was to kick myself in the pants and figure out how to live life with a baby. He's not going anywhere, so I needed to change my attitude and my life. I honestly feel for any other mom who has felt like this because it is so so hard. I've not ruled out the option of taking a drug if I find that I can't do this on my own, but for now....
1) I'm trying to get out of the house with the baby ON MY OWN. Up till now I felt like I couldn't get out with just me and Jr. and I'd get overwhelming anxiety at the thought of it. But practice makes perfect...hopefully.
2) I've joined a mommy meetup group that will hopefully put me in contact with some mummy friends. I've got my fingers crossed.
3) I'm working out more and trying to get some endorphins going.
4) I've cut myself some slack...mentally. I used to put some pressure on myself to get everything done, not now! Consequently, the house has gone to shit, but hey I ain't superwoman.
So yeah, that's the 411 on that. Shoot me a message if you have any suggestions or if you've gone through this.
Monday, January 24, 2011
Once the hair on your legs gets to a certain length it will take at least an hour per leg to get it properly shaved. Yes, I'm talking about mine...I could probably actually put little corn rows down my legs and hang little red and white beads off of them. It was that bad! On top of that my hot hubby wouldn't come within 2 ft of me for the stench! eeeeewwwww!
If you can't tell from the aforementioned, being a new mom has not been easy. It's been rough finding the time and energy and spunk that I once had. Being ADD makes it even harder and nothing can be done without being interrupted with a feeding or diaper change or clothing change or medicine application etc.
I've had a time of it adjusting to new mummydom, but realize that for the sake of sanity in our house I've got to put on a new attitude and try what I can to get back to real life.
Hopefully that means more blog posts soon!
Previously Smelly but just out of the shower, Edamummy
Posted by Edamummy at 8:01 PM
Thursday, January 6, 2011
This weekend my little sisters (all 3) are coming into town for an after Christmas tradition I started with them last year. I call it Sister Stocking. We each pick a name from the 4 of us and then we have a 15 dollar limit to go and get whatever little gifts we can for that sister. They are all 3 spending the night and we'll exchange gifts and hang out-maybe bake or watch a movie or just hang. It should be fun! Also this weekend-I'm taking my little sis to go get her hair cut and done here in town. I've got some ideas picked out for her. Should be fun!
Posted by Edamummy at 5:59 PM