My Baby Is A Porker

Jr. is in the 92 percentile for weight, meaning he's bigger than 92% of babies out there.  He's also sleeping about 12-13 hours a night.  We are lucky.

Gettin It Done

My little Jr and I actually got out and about this morning before 10am.  We did a fun trip with a new moms group.  I got to meet some really nice other moms, explore some art and take a brisk stroll outdoors.  The moms group is nice and I'm hoping to meet someone there that I can become 'real' friends with.  I kind of hit it off with one mummy, but we'll see.  I feel like I'm back in school trying to make friends again.  At least this time if I don't make any friends I've still got Jr.- and he ain't going nowhere.  I snapped this photo of the porker while on our walk.  It looks like he's waving!  What a sweet little poopy head.

Post Partum Mini Depression

Recently I've been struggling with some serious blues.  I of course had the baby blues after delivering Jr. but this was something different.  I didn't want to leave the house and just wanted to stay in bed all day, not even wanting to be bothered with Jr.  I didn't want to get up and feed him, didn't want to change him and certainly didn't have the energy to play with him.  I would randomly cry sometimes.  It was horrible and I felt guilty at times.  

Being a mom is a big adjustment and clearly I wasn't ready.  I started feeling bad mentally, but it came on in a way that I didn't even notice it happening.  I stopped enjoying things, and didn't want to do any of the things I used to love.  I found myself resenting other moms who seemed, in my eyes, to be better at it.  I would read about other moms who seemed to be diving right into baby products, baby clothes, baby everything and loving it.  I hated them, and I was jealous.  I saw moms out shopping and all dressed up and cute and seemingly did it so effortlessly.  Why were they able to do it and I couldn't?  The house was going to shit and the thought of absolutely anything was overwhelming.  Thinking about brushing my teeth was a monumental task.  I felt isolated because I don't have any other mom friends to spend time with and vent with.  I felt alone, but didn't want to talk to anyone, even my friends.  And even when I did talk to people I didn't feel like they really understood.

I think the biggest problem was that I didn't want to even see my baby.  He irritated me.

I don't think I'm the only one who has felt like this.  At least I hope not, cause that would be weird!  I thought about taking anti-depressants, but that's not what I truly needed.  What I needed was to kick myself in the pants and figure out how to live life with a baby.  He's not going anywhere, so I needed to change my attitude and my life.  I honestly feel for any other mom who has felt like this because it is so so hard.  I've not ruled out the option of taking a drug if I find that I can't do this on my own, but for now....

1) I'm trying to get out of the house with the baby ON MY OWN.  Up till now I felt like I couldn't get out with just me and Jr. and I'd get overwhelming anxiety at the thought of it.  But practice makes perfect...hopefully.

2)  I've joined a mommy meetup group that will hopefully put me in contact with some mummy friends.  I've got my fingers crossed.

3)  I'm working out more and trying to get some endorphins going.

4)  I've cut myself some slack...mentally.  I used to put some pressure on myself to get everything done, not now!  Consequently, the house has gone to shit, but hey I ain't superwoman.

So yeah, that's the 411 on that.  Shoot me a message if you have any suggestions or if you've gone through this. 

Warning! Gross Alert.

Once the hair on your legs gets to a certain length it will take at least an hour per leg to get it properly shaved.  Yes, I'm talking about mine...I could probably actually put little corn rows down my legs and hang little red and white beads off of them.  It was that bad!  On top of that my hot hubby wouldn't come within 2 ft of me for the stench!  eeeeewwwww!

If you can't tell from the aforementioned, being a new mom has not been easy.  It's been rough finding the time and energy and spunk that I once had.  Being ADD makes it even harder and nothing can be done without being interrupted with a feeding or diaper change or clothing change or medicine application etc.  

I've had a time of it adjusting to new mummydom, but realize that for the sake of sanity in our house I've got to put on a new attitude and try what I can to get back to real life.

Hopefully that means more blog posts soon!  

Love, 

Previously Smelly but just out of the shower, Edamummy

Weekend Fun

This weekend my little sisters (all 3) are coming into town for an after Christmas tradition I started with them last year.  I call it Sister Stocking.  We each pick a name from the 4 of us and then we have a 15 dollar limit to go and get whatever little gifts we can for that sister.  They are all 3 spending the night and we'll exchange gifts and hang out-maybe bake or watch a movie or just hang.  It should be fun!  Also this weekend-I'm taking my little sis to go get her hair cut and done here in town.  I've got some ideas picked out for her.  Should be fun!

Happy Holidays

We had a good holiday sharing it with our new families.  We were unbelievably exhausted because Jr. had not been sleeping good.  We were just beat to the bone, and up till about 4 on Christmas eve.  I was actually starting to feel negative towards everything, even Jr.  It scared me, and so I decided to do something about it.  I've got Jr. on a more structured schedule--sleep, eat, play--all day.  He stays on this routine until bedtime.  I put him down at 7:30 or 8pm.  He'll sleep for 3 hrs., then I feed him and put him right back down.  If he cries, we just let him cry.  It's hard to let him cry, especially when it is going for about 30 minutes but once he's done he'll sleep about 8 hours.  Last night he slept for 9 hours.  I wanted to jump up and dance I was so proud of him!  Actually, I just laid in bed and enjoyed waking up to a quiet house.  Happy holidays, my favorite gift is having a happy sleeping baby!  SANITY has entered the building.

Beginning Of Traditions

My hubbs had the wonderful idea of going to cut down a tree every year for the holidays.  I love family traditions, and so we did.  We found the perfect tree, came home and decorated to the taste of hot coco while the fire cracked.  Dangling in the lights is Jr.'s s first Christmas ornament.

 

 

 

Cute Baby

So I've been having trouble keeping up with the blogging but I'm also having trouble keeping up with showering! Cute babies still like to poop and pee everywhere. You'll have to excuse the piles of laundry and b.o. I'm hoping Jrs cuteness will distract visitors from what's really going on here. :)

Me And The Bean

I attempted to dress up for Thanksgiving a couple weekends ago.  It was really tiring to travel and visit both families, but we thought it was important to share the holiday with our loved ones.  It's great having new family members and I think we are both lucky that we actually really like each others family. 

(post) Delivery Discussion

My stomach has gone down a great deal since I delivered Jr.  It's no six pack, not hardly even a two pack, but I did manage to do my first few sit-ups the other day.  Breastfeeding has been a huge help too, as I'm burning around 500 calories from that alone.